How does one find themselves overweight and unhappy? Part 2

Well here I am again to tell a bit more of my story. Let me tell you this is so hard for me to post all of this because as a Christian woman I feel it shows lack of trust, Lack of trust in God as I seemed to turn to food more than God. Oh believe me I spent time praying and I believed he would heal me but food still seemed to draw me in. I guess it was my sinful nature taking over.
As I talked in the first post of the Pericarditis and how hard it was on my body to recover I often think if I had not been in pretty good shape how much harder it would of been. Following this condition for years I knew if I got sick it would mean pneumonia. Then all of a sudden I contracted strept, It would not go away for about 2 years Laura and I were on an antibiotic to get rid of this. We would get well and then boom it would be back again finally after being sent to a ears, nose and throat specialist we discovered my tonsils needs removed. The strept was living in craters in my tonsils and the antibiotics were not killing it at all.
At 35 they removed my tonsils and that was not fun but I seem to feel better and I got my sense of smelling back.
I was still not back to exercising or eating better. The stept was gone but again my body was just torn apart from all the antibiotics and it took awhile to regain my immunity. A matter of fact I finally started getting pneumonia shots to try and prevent pneumonia.
This puts in about 1999 and now my weight was hovering around 200 pounds. My feet, hips, and knees hurt all the time. I wish I would started working out then. I wish I would of found Chalene and her workouts. I would diet and lose weight but I just could not stay on it and it would come back. I did Atkins for awhile and got down to 162 but as soon as I stopped it I gained 10 pounds and then eventually I was back hovering around 200 again.
I will do one more part to talk about getting up to 222. 
I want end this post on a positive note. Here I am today at 158 and I am working hard toward 140 and this time it is different because I am losing weight in a healthy manner and plan on sticking to this for the rest of my life. It has been hard to lose this weight I do not want to ever have to do this again. Between clean eating and exercise I will achieve my goals. Thanks to beachbody for Chalean Extreme, turbojam, P90x, power 90 and the diet plans. I also like being able to log my workouts into the WOWY supergym.